things my tastebuds need to mature for

1. capers

2. gin

3. that red wine bitter rapidity of time

4. soured forgiveness

5. that blanched opacity of not knowing what comes next

6. mussels

7. bitter apologies

8. the bile in my throat every time i recognise myself salted and tearful hangovers - i'm sure i cant get used to this

9. regret

10. beetroot